Somedays aren't yours at all

The saying that you appreciate something more when you lose it is cliche but ultimately true. 

It's not so much appreciating as it is realising that you should be doing things differently. It's always my lack of confidence that does me in. Everything that means most to me I shove away out of fear and panic that I will never be good enough for it.

The truth is, is that I have always been good enough and if I believe in myself I will be even better.

It's silly.

I'm smart enough

Pretty enough

A decent person

Caring

Loving

Gentle

And yet I try to convince others I am not. Why? Because I place others above me and knock myself down.

But the truth is, I belong where I am. I deserve those qualities. I embody those qualities and much more. 

With every day I become more confident and I have an urge to be a better person.

Abusing yourself is not worth it. 

I only have one body

One mind

One life

And I will make the most of it. 

I am capable of being someone great and accomplishing a lot in this lifetime. I'm capable of helping others, making others feel better about themselves, being a loving friend, a caring lover, someone that makes others want to be better people as well. 

This is who I am and who I am is who I love.